A Love Story

Catching Up...

So it has been nearly 18 months since I have actually been able to sit down and spend time in the online focused jounaling of mine and my husband Curt's life together. So much has happened... I have since relocated to West Texas with one of our furkids, our youngest basset hound Gabby Lynn, been placed on blood pressure medication for fear of a second stroke   since my last TIA stroke in February of 2015. Let's see I sold our house and had to temporarily place our 2 oldest basset hounds Benny and Dewey in homes across the map with friends until I can really secure the timing to bring all 3 of my furkids under one roof with me until their" Papa" Curt comes home... That is still a fluid situation.The transition to West Texas has been a mind, heart and spirit shaping experience that's for sure!  But that's another subject to share later...  Anyhow, my sweet husband and I are going strong and steady despite the circumstances.

So fast forward from my last entry here...

Got a lot of reading, writing and some good journaling done last night for mine and Curt's online private Life Together Journal. Also arranging more of our discussed planning for the next steps ahead in this whole journey of his incarceration I also ordered him and I our next shared reading book that we're going to be reading together.

Last night I got one of the most amazing, deeply touching, heart and soul felt letters from him. It's amazing the strength and intimacy that has only become more developed between us as each day passes. We're strategizing each and every step together and we're making sure to [check our fences] along the way.

We were talking last night that our situation is definitely not one for the weak at heart, spirit or mind. It's a situation that challenges everything that most people would consider to be [normal] and bearable where the institution of MARRIAGE is concerned.

I'm often sent a private message or text or phone call, asking me how I/we do it... How do I not just cave in and go nuts or have a complete breakdown??

Well, it not a cut and dry answer really. Instead it's literally ONE DAY at a time and a solid determination of WILL, to hang onto one thing... The promise we made to each other the day we were married : "For better or for worse..."

That promise along with our personal characters that are definitely both BOLD in nature when challenges big or small come our way, individually speaking and as a couple. Strip us of our personal possessions and we're still a couple who are deeply devoted, in love and flat out crazy about each other. Add to that that we're both naturally focused on sharp thinking as a team... Bottom line, Giving up isn't ever an option. Anyone who truly knows me personally KNOWS that I am a fighter!
Thank goodness I married one too in my husband Curt.

Every day he and I are faced with challenges....each in our own current environments... We face these believe it or not with a quiet strategy of maintaining the most important thing between us -A strong and unshakeable shared FAITH in God and our Love and grip for the whole of our marriage and each other.

Quiet time and space. . He constantly reminds me to TAKE MY TIME for my personal need in that specific area.  Contrary to what most people would assume... This situation is definitely not A Walk In The Park There are often mind numbing aspects to all this that I quietly deal with on a daily basis.... But dealing with it I do...We do together. 

One day my sweet husband Curt is going to walk out those gates and back into my arms and we're going to take some Time and Space away from everyone and everything possible and as he said last night: "Recharge our ONE Battery together. "

In the meantime here lately, I'm working on recharging my own battery and slowly doing some trimming of my personal hedges where somethings are concerned...

I wouldn't wish this situation on anyone! But this situation is unfortunately our raw reality together. And there's only one way through it... And that is TOGETHER liberally at all costs!